I find myself connected deeply to two worlds and very much with a foot in both. Life speaks and I listen. It shows me and I honor it's mystery.

I inhereted a unique awareness as a child from my ancestors who also shared this deep connection with life. With their gifts, I also received their trauma. I've spent a life time breaking the chains they were bound by.

I have risen and fallen... died and been reborn. I have known immense suffering and isolation and the struggle of this evolution in it's depths. I found my Soul in all that I had abandoned and I found freedom in coming to know the nature of my chains. It has been a very long and challenging journey... but it was mine and it brought forth a love and a security and a presence and relationship to all of life that I never dreamed was possible.

I hold sacred all that I have inhereted as much as I hold sacred the images and archetypes of life that are yet to be realized. I embrace the water and the fire that move through me.

All which has mystified or terrified the world around me. That I have thankfully found my peace with this at this point in my life.

I have a strong mind… one that's very much grounded in my heart. Although I'm intellectual... I move from a place of wisdom and relationship. Many in the world seek to control that which they don't understand. To fear and turn away from that which they repress within themselves. Being a very conscious feminine in a world ravaged by the unconscious masculine has been challenging. I had to face that unconscious and rejected masculine within me and bring it to a place of love and nurturing and understanding. So that I may embrace a world that has been so very painful for me to witness. To know it's beauty as well as it's failings. To be able to embrace it and love it and restore it to wholeness.

It is only in my healing that I see a path forward for the healing of the world. It is only in facing my darkness that I can embrace and help others walk through theirs.

I am not perfect… but I know myself as whole.

I seek to restore the world in every realm in which I touch it. To give of the abundance of Life that has been gifted to me and to live in solidarity
of the Evolution we are all moving through, together.

Although I have desired deeply a loving partnership all of my life, it is only this point in my life in which I have come to know what it is to really receive love. For me, love was taught as self sacrificial and was bound to abandonment. I wasn't ready for the partnership I was truly desiring to create.

As I've come to love myself deeply and irrevocably... I have also found a home here. Deep inner security and safety and belonging. I know what it is to be present within that communion. That I can truly be present within it in my connections to others. I can recognize now those who are ready to meet me where I am. As they have met themselves.

I welcome a partner who fully embraces the whole unadulterated person that I am.
Who wants to be embraced fully by me.

I desire only to continue expanding into Life and to give of that abundance and love to the world in all ways. To live in balance with the world around me. To maintain my own inner peace. To stand present in the mud and evolution of life as I know the water is overflowing and will clear my path.

I want to know your Soul and the way you embrace the world. I want to know the seeds you have planted... even if it has yet to bare fruit.

I am a Trauma and Integration Counselor.
I use my gifts to help others traverse their inner worlds and find wholeness and integration.
I use sacred plant medicine to facilitate this work when necessary.

I have known the greatest of sufferings and found the greatest of freedoms.
I do not turn away from this darkness... it is my calling to hold space for others to do this great work and help
them navigate what is an incredibly difficult and painful kind of death.

I am writing a book.
I work part time in healthcare as I expand more fully into my work.

I am a Master Herbalist... I have worked with plants all of my life.
I am unusually enough, a classically trained singer as well. I sang professionally in my other life and
still love music and perform occasionally when I'm called to it.

The joy of dogs on a car ride. The little arms of my nephew wrapped around my neck.
A good cup of coffee... a powerful song... the sun as it sets over the mountains.

The stillness of winter night sky. Double rainbows after a storm. Grinding my herbs, mortar & pestle in hand.
A genuine act... an honest word... kindness from strangers. Singing in the shower... dancing in the kitchen... road trips. The rain as I'm hiking through the forest. I love the reflections on the water at night. I have a great love for Graveyards.

I love going to the movie theater or watching as nostalgic movie. I like rainy days in bed with a love... reading or making love or cooking in my underwear. I like slow dances and forehead kisses and to be totally and completely spent... after climbing a mountain or expanding into ecstatic love.